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Feb 19 2015 1:30pm

The Danger of Destiny: Exclusive Excerpt

Leigh Evans


There are very few days off when you’re on an epic quest. Believe me, I know. I’m Hedi Peacock—one half Fae, the other Were—and if being a half-breed with one foot in each world isn’t tough enough to manage, there are the four chambers of my heart to consider. The one who holds the strings? Robson Trowbridge, the Alpha of Creemore. If I had my way, he and I would be locked in a bedroom, for eternity, but a pressing family matter needs my attention. It’s true what they say: A woman’s work is never done.


My twin brother is being held captive by the Old Mage in another realm. Lo and behold, as soon as Trowbridge and I arrive in Merenwyn, we’re separated in spectacular, dramatic fashion—and I’m left to figure out how to maintain the fragile balance between my Fae magic and my wolf’s blood in a realm that cries to both. Not easy, particularly when I'm keeping an iron-grip on my temper so as not to dispatch with extreme prejudice the odd wizard or smart-mouthed mutt servant who crosses my path. My mama never told me there’d be days like these, but I’m not going down without a fight…or my mate.  

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Legs like lead. Each ragged breath dragon fire scorching my windpipe. Trowbridge’s fist a bruising manacle, hauling me up every time I lost my footing.

And trust me, I kept stumbling.


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Feb 6 2014 1:15pm

The Problem with Promises: Exclusive Excerpt

Leigh Evans


Robson Trowbridge, the Alpha of Creemore and my gorgeous mate, tries to protect me, Hedi Peacock, half-Fae, half-were, from all the trouble I get into. The thing is, my past is pretty messy and bad guys keep knocking down my door. Witches, thug bikers, the North American Council of Weres, dark magic Fae, and even an evil wizard are all after me. The Old Mage is the only one I really care about: He has my dear twin brother captive on the other side of the Gates of Merenwyn—not cool. So my alpha love is helping me to keep my promise to free my brother…


Unfortunately, everyone who helps me ends up in a heap of trouble too—including my Trowbridge. Now, I admit I’ve had my moments as a shivering coward, hoping he will come to my brave rescue. The whole Prince Charming thing is hard to shake. But these bad guys after me mean business and those damsel in distress days are over. You know that “last straw” metaphor? That was two straws ago. It’s now or never. Again…

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Dinner at the Trowbridge Manse

Approximately two hours after I sent my brother to Merenwyn—Robson Trowbridge pushed away his dinner plate and knuckled his red-rimmed eyes. There wasn’t much left on the chicken carcass. The bones had been picked clean.

He ate a whole bird. On his own.

I poured another measure of maple syrup into my bowl. Not too much, just enough to coat the bottom of it. I was saving some space for the white chocolate macadamia nut cookies that sat on the counter.

“You need to sleep,” I said quietly. My mate was all cheekbones and blue eyes now that he’d lopped off his dreads from hell. It made his skin look thin and taut, and only served to emphasize the blue smudges under the line of his thick black lashes.

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Jul 12 2013 11:00am

The Thing About Weres: Exclusive Excerpt

Leigh Evans

The Thing About Weres by Leigh Evans

In the never-ending saga that is my love-hate relationship with Robson Trowbridge, I, half-Were Hedi Peacock, have had a change of heart. Ever since I shoved Trowbridge through the Gates of Merenwyn, I’ve been the leader of the pack—hard to believe, right? The thing is: I’m half-Fae. So even though my Were side is ready to heed the call of the wild, the other part of me is desperate to take flight. And much as it pains me to admit it, life without Trowbridge is really starting to were me down…

To make matters worse, the wolves of Creemore want my blood—and the North American Council of Weres wants me dead. So I’m just counting the days until Trowbridge returns from the other realm…and comes to my brave rescue…and becomes my alpha mate. Wishful thinking? Of course it is. But given all the mess I’ve been through already, what’s the harm in doing a little bit of daisy-plucking? Besides, Trowbridge owes me bigtime. A girl can dream.

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On the Tricky Subject of Wishes

I don’t know why Weres think the moon’s so beautiful. Look at it. The thing’s rutted with craters. Not once have I gazed at it and wanted to let loose a wolf howl or break into a melancholy chorus of “Moon River.”

Most nights, I refuse to give it more than a brooding glance. Matter of fact, most of the time, I make a point of not looking upward. I keep my eyes trained on the life around the pond and the dead air above it.

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Dec 13 2012 2:00pm

Author Leigh Evans on Her Favorite Paranormal Authors

Today Heroes and Heartbreakers is pleased to welcome author Leigh Evans, whose The Trouble with Fate will be released December 24, 2012. The Trouble with Fate's heroine is both Fae and Were, and she gets into as much...trouble as one not-human who works as a barista and lives with a loopy aunt can get into. Leigh visits her favorite local bookstore and shares some of the authors she loves in the video guest blog above. Thanks, Leigh!

Dec 3 2012 12:00pm

The Trouble with Fate: New Excerpt

Leigh Evans

The Trouble With Fate by Leigh EvansMy name is Hedi Peacock and I have a secret. I’m not human, and I have the pointy Fae ears and Were inner-bitch to prove it. As fairy tales go, my childhood was damn near perfect, all fur and magic until a werewolf killed my father and the Fae executed my mother. I’ve never forgiven either side. Especially Robson Trowbridge. He was a part-time werewolf, a full-time bastard, and the first and only boy I ever loved. That is, until he became the prime suspect in my father’s death…

Today I’m a half-breed barista working at a fancy coffee house, living with my loopy Aunt Lou and a temperamental amulet named Merry, and wondering where in the world I’m going in life. A pretty normal existence, considering. But when a pack of Weres decides to kidnap my aunt and force me to steal another amulet, the only one who can help me is the last person I ever thought I’d turn to: Robson Trowbridge. And he’s as annoyingly beautiful as I remember. That’s the trouble with fate: Sometimes it barks. Other times it bites. And the rest of the time it just breaks your heart. Again…

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Chapter 1

What do the tree huggers call it? Karma?

No, wait a minute; that’s not right. “Karma” is just a word for what goes around comes around, isn’t it? And on the surface, Robson Trowbridge’s only crime was to have been the hot guy in school who was totally oblivious to the bot­tom dwellers of his world.

Like me, Hedi Peacock, formerly Helen Stronghold, and still, unfortunately, a bottom dweller.

“Karma” isn’t the word I was looking for. Should some­one’s life turn to crap just because he’s handsome? Even I’m not that bitter. But still, I wish someone would even it out, make it so that everyone had the same luck and chances. If I created the world, you could bet there would be a set of natural laws, and one of them would be the Law of You Can’t Stay Hot Forever. It would be stamped on the forehead of every high school heartthrob in ink visible only to bottom dwellers, just as an incentive to survive the ordeal of high school. According to my law, hot guys would age very badly. At thirty, they’d be thumbing through the yellow pages searching for a hair renewal salon.

I shifted on the back of my heels, and strained to peek over the counter. Ten years out of high school and Trowbridge still had hair. In fact, more than when he’d been the to-die-for son of the Alpha of Creemore. Back then, he’d owned a Jeep and had dibs on a crown. He’d have been considered cute even without the killer smile.

“What are you doing down there?” asked my manager, Mark.

“I thought I dropped something, but I can’t find it.” I stood and reached for the silver milk container beside my espresso machine. It had been a dumb instinct, dropping to my knees behind the counter. Most things are better faced when you’re upright.

“You’re slowing down again.” Mark slapped another cup on the order shelf. “Now, you have four orders to fill.” He lowered his voice. “Hurry. Up.”

I nodded, teeth clenched, and let out a jet of steam to make him back up. He was going to fire me.

I may have broken a cookie here and there. Everyone knows that broken cookies can’t be sold. Everyone knows that the person who notices the broken cookie gets to eat the cookie. These are facts. If people stayed with proven facts, work environments would be easier. Groundless accusations just stir things up, like the whole “Who hid the turkey breast sandwich behind the milk?” controversy. Did they think I did it? Well, prove it. Maybe I did do it, and maybe if you were an anal retentive asshole who counted cookies and sand­wiches, you might feel those were two good reasons to fi re your barista. Maybe.

But I was a goddess behind the machine. Normally, my fingers flew over the knobs, steam didn’t bother me, and no one, I repeat, no one, made foam like I did. I was a good barista, who could usually keep up with a stream of empty cups appearing by her left elbow. I even found it comforting, that monotony of press the button, steam the milk, empty the shot glass, pass the cup. But lately the familiar routine wasn’t automatic. Twice today, I’d come out of one of my aunt Lou’s transmitted thought pictures—something of a trance—with steamed milk running over the lip of the silver container and my heart jackrabbiting in my chest.

People were giving me plenty of space this afternoon, which was good. Space is a nice buffer when you work a shift with the idiot tag team of Mark and blonde-from- a-box Jen­nifer. They kept batting back and forth answers to the really important question of “If you could save only one thing from a fire, what would it be?”

Come on, guys. It’s not that hard. There’s only one an­swer. Yourself, dimwit. When fire is chewing through every­thing you’ve ever cared about, and there is no one left to rescue beyond yourself, the decision is simple: forget your charm bracelet and find the door. I’d point that out, but that would mean getting cozy with a human, and I don’t do cozy with the humans, which is providential, because as it hap­pens, none of them have ever offered to extend the relation­ship beyond work hours. They keep their distance. Which is good, and bad, and maybe a little sad.

I can’t say I blame them. If I had to share a shift with me, I might be leery of getting in too close. Even full- blooded Fae need sleep, and my lack of quality time spent with a pillow was starting to show. But as long as I had a choice between an acid stomach or dream-plagued sleep? Pass the espresso.

At least when I was mostly awake, I could fight the sick­ening tentacles of Lou’s wandering mind reaching for mine. And if I failed, I could say to myself, Okay, take a deep breath, you’re all right, you’re just seeing her dreams through her eyes, but you’re still Hedi. You’re just stuck in your mad aunt’s head for a bit, witnessing how truly fucked up her brain is.

But when I was asleep? Different. Scary different.

And now I had Weres in my Starbucks; my stomach gave a disapproving gurgle.

When Trowbridge had opened the coffee shop door—the second Were to enter in ten minutes—I’d dropped to my knees, stricken with the fear that I’d slipped into a hallucina­tion of my own, and had done so without experiencing the usual shit-here-I-go slide that happens before Lou pulls me into one of hers. Then, just as quickly as it had swamped me, my fear eased. I don’t detect scents when I’m dreaming and my nose had picked up an aroma over the brewed coffee that was Trowbridge’s alone. Ten years ago, when I’d been a lovesick twelve-year-old, I hadn’t been able to put my finger on that unique thing in his personal scent signature that my hormones interpreted as “Yum, Robson Trowbridge.”

Even now, older and a hell of a lot more bitter, I couldn’t find a word for it. It was just a truth, as tiresome and hard to deny as the notion that chocolate bypasses your stomach and goes straight to your hips. Trowbridge smelled different than the other Creemore Weres. He always had.

He was still pretty, if a bit unkempt. His jaw hadn’t seen a razor in a good week. And his hair was different. Now it was long, dark rumpled curls that brushed his shoulders. The type of curls that say, “I just got out of bed after a night of really hot sex.” Curls that don’t need a brush, just some sated female to finger-comb them.

Annoying. A girl couldn’t look at Robson Trowbridge without thinking about sex, even if she had reason to hate him. To keep myself sharp on that point, I checked out his neck, and sure enough, he had a gold chain hanging from it. He’d hidden the rest of the amulet under his shirt, but I knew it was there. Fae gold calls to my kind. I could feel its siren song, even from where I stood, half hidden behind the cof­fee machine.

Old history, and yet not.

“Double decaf, tall, no-foam latte.” I placed the coffee on the bar and scowled at the man who reached out for it before I finished centering it on the tray. There’s protocol, even at a Starbucks. You don’t reach for it, you wait for it. I snatched my fingers back before his could brush mine. All this pent-up fear was making me cranky.

It had snuck up on me, this yearning for Trowbridge, around puberty. I’d taken one glance at his  Were abs, and gone from kid to preteen so fast that Mum had gotten whip­lash. Worse, it had clung to me, that desire. Even though I try not to think of him, I still call up his face for every dark- haired hero found in one of those romance novels I boost from Bob, the blind bookseller.

Yes, I steal books from a blind bookseller.

How screwed up is that? Imagining Trowbridge as Lord Worthington, complete with the spotless Hessians?

I really wanted to rub my eyes. Behind my glasses’ magicked lenses, my eyes were sparking so badly it felt like a squad of Boy Scouts were competing to see who could start a fi re with a flint and steel. But if you have a disguise, you wear it, even if it’s inconvenient, even if part of you wants to do a pirouette on top of the bar and sing, “Hah, I didn’t die after all, you scum-sucking dog.”

As I reached for a new gallon of skim milk, Trowbridge moved from the doorway toward a white-haired Were who’d come in a few minutes earlier. Geezer-Were had looked as benign as an old Were could, but I’d been keeping tabs on him anyhow, ready to bolt if he looked at me sideways. By my rulebook, Gramps shouldn’t have been there in the fi rst place, not if he was a regular Were, doing regular things. Why? Because, basically, the stench of coffee is akin to the best doggone wolf repellent available. It won’t stop the moti­vated, but will deter the average Were.

Which is why, when the old Were had entered the café, nose high, and snared the last free table, my stomach had tensed, and I’d shrunk a little lower behind my brewing ma­chine, not knowing what to expect. But since then, he’d just sat there, slouching in his comfortable country clothes, one hand playing with a stir stick someone had left behind. My ill ease had flattened, because part of me figured I could outrun a fossil like him, any day, any time. But now my fight-or-flight instinct was tapping me on the shoulder, telling me to stay sharp. What would two Weres be doing in a coffee shop? Had the Weres of Creemore finally come looking for me?

Trowbridge took a quick glance around the room before pulling out a chair opposite Geezer-Were. I held my breath as his gaze skipped me and drifted over to a shapely bru­nette, waiting to place her order. So much for the “aha” mo­ment. He didn’t point a finger at me and exclaim, “Lo, there be the long-lost daughter of Benjamin Stronghold!” I wiped the counter while the steam did the foam thing, considering the implications of that. My features hadn’t changed that much. I mean, if you searched hard enough, it wasn’t a big stretch to spot the similarities between a kid named Helen and a girl named Hedi. Did the Creemore pack actually think I was dead? Unbelievable. After the flames and smoke had petered out, hadn’t anyone pawed through the rubble search­ing for our remains? Two kids, plus two parents brought the body count to four, not two. Fools. No one scratched their head and said, “Hey, we’re missing two corpses”?

Unless the fire reduced everything to ash? Could it do that? Bones and teeth too?

I’d never made their wanted list.It was a near sickening thought when one took in all the effort Lou and I expended hiding our tracks . . .  oh hell . . .  I could have gone to school . . . Without taking my eyes off Trowbridge and com­pany, I pointed my finger and sent out a mental stream to the steam knob. It eased a fraction to the left.

His wedding band winked at me as he tucked a hank of hair behind his ear.

“Didn’t stop the cheating dog from checking out the bru­nette, did it?” I muttered to my chest. In response, my amulet, Merry, twitched in her sleep, still hidden under my shirt where I wore her. Sometimes she roused to see what was up, sometimes she didn’t—she’d simply twitch or flinch, sort of her version of a pillow over the head. In the end it didn’t really matter, because I’d give her a blow-by-blow later. Unless Merry was feeding, she hung around my neck on a chain, making her a convenient audience for one of my monologues. The rest of the time I let her nap inside the cup of my lace bra.

Trowbridge sat a little straighter. Well, he was a  Were; he’d probably heard me. But recognize me? That appeared to be another thing. I wasn’t twelve anymore, and besides, I was supposed be dead, burned up in the fi re.

“Peacock,” said Mark. “Speed it up.”

I spooned off a little foam and put the next order on the bar.

“That’s nonfat?” asked the woman.

“Yup,” I said with my toothy barista smile. When she turned away, I began to clean the nozzle with the damp rag. Trowbridge hadn’t moved much since he’d done the visual and slapped a “later” label on the brunette, but from my side of the bar, I could smell his growing unease over the coffee, warm milk, and humans.

That’s right, something’s wrong, I telegraphed. What is it?

His head tilted to the side as if he were searching for a clue. His nostrils flared.

Good luck on that. Faes don’t have a scent. He wasn’t following the script. He was supposed to haul me out from behind the bar, and stalk out of the coffee shop, with me a helpless, fainting burden in his arms. I’d be wearing kitten heels, one of which would drop off. My small fists would beat on his chest, and he’d look down at me and realize that his life was over unless he claimed me as his own.

Of course for that scenario to work, I’d have to be weak, blond, and at least fourteen pounds lighter. And he’d be Lord Worthington, not some no-account Were. I’m round and short. I don’t wear kitten heels. I’d like to, but they aren’t on the approved shoe list for Starbucks.

See, there you go, another lie. I’d never wear kitten heels.

My hair is brown. When it’s freshly washed and the sun catches it just so, someone who’s read one too many bodice rippers might use the word “chestnut” to describe it. That’s a stretch. Most days it could be best described as mousy brown. I haven’t worked out what to do with it, so I usually wear it pulled back in a ponytail—one of those slacker ponytails that conveniently hide the ears.

And I’m not in the least bit beautiful, which just goes to show what a contrary bitch genetics is. My mum was beauti­ful, otherworldly beautiful, with golden hair that swung in graceful waves to her hips. But then again, she was born a Fae—what most humans call a fairy. She didn’t have wings, and she didn’t go around in a belted tunic. She did have the ears though. Mine have a slight point to them, courtesy of her. Sometimes I find my fingers stroking their sharp, curved peaks. It soothes me.

What’s on the other side of my gene pool?

Werewolf. From my moon-called father, I got a full upper lip, a temper, and my own personal inner Were. I have that bitch on permanent lockdown, buried so deep that she repre­sents little more than a salivation problem when I walk past the deli. I do not turn furry when the full moon rises in the night sky. My eyes don’t glow red with rage, my teeth don’t elongate, and I can hear only a little better than humans.

Get over the myths. They’re never accurate.

Trowbridge got up, and jerked his head toward the exit. Geezer-Were stood to follow. Trowbridge held the door open for him, his right hand spread wide on the glass door. It had three fingers; a thumb, a pointer, and an f-u. The pinkie was missing, leaving a rounded nub close to his palm. The ring finger had been severed after the first knuckle. Who’d hurt him?

“Did you get that?” hissed Mark.


“The next order. Grande, two pump vanilla, nonfat, extra hot, latte. You’re falling behind again, Hedi,” he said, from the safety of the cash register.

The door swung closed behind Trowbridge. I bore down on the next orders with a ferocity that made all the other little baristas stay well clear as I came to terms with the thought that all my hiding had been for nothing. They really did think I had died in the fire. Walk away, Trowbridge, I thought. Take your chewed-up hand with you.

Fourteen minutes later, my beautiful silver coffee maker started to shimmer. I squeezed hard on the steamer’s shiny silver handle, and concentrated on my fingers curled around it. Small hands, the knuckles four white sharp stones under soft skin. I could feel the pull, the sick slip of melting into Lou’s thought-pictures.

A big fat red apple flashed through my brain.

“Easy, Lou,” I said under my breath as I slid a bold one to a short guy. Fae tears, my aunt was lost today. This was the third time.

Concentrate. My hand. This handle, shiny, and silver bright. Concentrate on the sounds in the background. Some­one was jiggling his keys. Use that as an anchor, cling to the sound, stay in the here. There was a sickening flutter of im­ages as she overwhelmed my resistance. A red apple, some­thing flying through the air, a face angry and distorted.

“Stay in the here, stay in the here,” I whispered. I tried to focus on the feel of my hand on the handle, the distinctive reek of coffee, and the murmur of human voices in the back­ground. Lou’s telegraphed images started to get thin to trans­parent. For an instant I could see the lineup of cups on top of my machine.

Another flash, another push, and suddenly, she’d started to tow me helplessly back into the current of her thought-pictures. The same freakin’ red apple. A gravel path. A tree line, dark and somehow horrifying. The inside of Bob’s book­store, with midday light streaming weakly through the open space of glass. A natural pool. The water dark, but the trees so green, and the light so bright. A dark uniform, bulky and foreign. Lou’s hand, her ornate ring too loose on her finger.

The “here” was gone.

“Ow,” I squeaked as sharp pain broke through my haze and shattered Lou’s thought-pictures. I was back, staring at my hand on the knob again, with the smell of coffee pungent in my nostrils. Saved by Merry, once again. When all else fails, a well-timed pinch works just dandy.

Lou had never pulled me so quickly into the broken puz­zle of her deteriorating brain, except when I was asleep. When I was inside her head that deep, I  couldn’t spit out the fear that lay heavy on my tongue.

“Hedi,” my manager said carefully. “You’re off the line.”

The next customer had stopped jiggling his keys. I bit my lip at his carefully neutral face, and turned with a sense of inevitability. Mark was standing halfway between the cash register and my machine.

“Work the cash register for the rest of your shift.” He didn’t have the balls to come any closer. Jennifer was behind him, her brows pulled together. One day she’ll be Botoxing the crap out of that vertical line.

Humans all around me.

“You know what, Mark?” I pulled the apron over my head and tossed it. It caught the milk container, ghosted over it, and slid to the wet ground. “I’m not feeling well. I think I need to punch out early.” I pulled my backpack out from the cabinet storing the vanilla bottles.

“Wait a minute. I haven’t given you permission to leave.” He lifted a hand as if to catch my arm. “I’d like to look through your bag before you go.”

“Kiss my ass, Mark.” I shouldered past him, shrugging on my backpack.

“You walk out that door and you’re fired. You’ve broken your last machine, and stolen your last sandwich,” Mark snapped.

I searched for a good retort, couldn’t come up with one, and threaded my way through the tables. I kept my head high even when I heard Mark claim I was the worst barista ever. A patent lie. My foam was the best ever. Period.

“She’s on drugs,” Mark said in a low voice to Jennifer.

“Crack,” she said.

I paused, one shoulder holding the door open. The cool wind slid past me but it did nothing for my temper. I took my time, eyeing targets, before settling on the coffee machines. Affixed to the top of each machine was a plastic bowl. Inside the bowls were the coffee beans, waiting to be fed into the grinder. Two machines, two bowls each holding two pounds. Four pounds total.

Mark stood with one possessive hand on my favorite ma­chine, his eyes all puffy as he narrowed them into a squint. That’s what made it so easy. They never saw it coming.

I felt my lip curl.

I cocked my fingers backward, smiled, and with a flick sent my magic streaking through the air. Invisible to humans, its progress left a bright fluorescent-green trail to my Fae eyes. It hit the first bowl and stuck. I parted my fingers into a V. The stream separated into two trails. The second trail streaked toward the next bowl. “Weave,” I said, tracing an O with my fingers.

“Grow.” I fed a little more energy down the invisible cord.

I did four rotations with my hand until the rope of magic was swollen and hot and then I snipped the line.

I put one foot out of the door, and waited.

You know how you’re not supposed to hold a lit fire-cracker in your hand? So what do you think happens when you tell magic to grow and send it to a place it  can’t expand? Uh- huh. Kaboom.

The lines around the base of each bowl swelled, until the contained magic looked like a sausage hooked too long on the meat grinder. The bowls began to creak with the pres­sure around their bases. The plastic lids began to shiver.

Jennifer backed up.

Abruptly, the lids shot up, hitting the ceiling-mounted wa­ter pipes with enough force to make them shatter. And then the fireworks.

Sweet to my soul was the Vesuvius of magically powered coffee beans spewing in one long sweet eruption of caffein­ated hail to the ceiling. The stunned silence of the café was punctuated by Mark’s strangled, inarticulate, “Ack, ack, ack,” and the rat-tat-tat of the beans hitting the water pipes.

I waited for the last bean to fall. It clinked on the ground and then rolled until it hit the back heel of a suit.


“Huh,” I said. “That was strange.” I smiled again, baring all my teeth, and let the door close behind me.

Merry, being Merry, was pissed. I hadn’t taken six long jubi­lant steps out of the café before she struck in a fury of sear­ing heat that just about took a strip off the tender skin of my left breast.

“Shit, Merry-mine, not now,” I said, speeding up toward the corner of the building. “Cool down. Please, just cool down.”

She was so red that the front of my white blouse glowed as if I’d tucked a flare into my bra. I hunched my shoulder protectively, shielding my chest from the customer who was staring at us through the front window, his mug of coffee suspended halfway to his mouth.

I rounded the corner of the building at a good clip. The dusk had already deepened into urban night, the sort of leached-out gray that passes for a night sky in the city. Im­mediately on breaking the corner, I bent over at my waist, pulled my blouse away from my skin so that I could jerk Merry out by her chain. I let her dangle from it, red, gold, and glowing.

Merry hung from a long length of Fae-wrought gold neck­lace that my mother had placed around my neck the night she died. You’d need a magnifying glass to see it, but Merry was more than just a smudge in a piece of amber. She was an As­rai. I knew that at least, even if I didn’t know precisely what an Asrai was. I knew that she once had form: two legs, two arms, long hair. She belonged to the Fae world, but Lou had trapped her inside the amulet long before I was born. A hor­rible fate, I agree, but she wasn’t completely powerless.

Fae gold is not to be confused with mortal gold. Fae gold snickers at titanium’s relative weakness. It isn’t some dumb inanimate thing that just sits there, forever frozen in the shape that the artist had hammered it into. It’s alive. It can remold itself. It could, powered by the wrong Asrai’s spite, literally twine itself around your neck and choke you.

That bore remembering when you were talking to an Asrai-powered amulet.

And as much as Merry sometimes pissed me off—say, like when she tried to burn a layer of skin off me—she and Lou were it. One crazy-ass Fae named Lou, and one amber-colored stone, mounted in a swirl of baroque gold, named Merry. That was my world.

“You can cool down right now,” I said, flattening my shirt so that she could hang in the cool night air. I lowered my voice to a soothing tone. “My hand barely hurts. It’s not red, well, not red like my freakin’ boob is. You know, you’ve got to control your temper.” One of Merry’s unique attri­butes was the ability to heal my payback pain.

The red light turned a fraction purple.

“Okay, maybe I’m not the one to be talking about holding on to my temper. Trowbridge was in the shop tonight, Merry.

And I quit, and so yeah, I may have used some magic. Just a little bit. I was feeling stressed.” I rubbed the soot off my fin­ger against the rough grain of my khaki pants. “Look,” I said, pulling my finger up so that she could see it. “It’s barely red. I don’t need healing. It hardly hurts.” I was lying like hell, my finger was throbbing like someone had slammed it with a car door, but I held it up straight so that she could see.

“You don’t need to heal me, and you don’t need to have a hissy fit.”

She knew as well as I that payback pain would get worse before it got better. Her color cooled to a stubborn claret. I don’t know what claret is, but that’s what the bored heroes in my Regencies always drank, and I always figured it was red wine. And sometimes when I was feeling mellow, a furious Merry reminded me of a glass of something vintage, held up to the golden dancing flames of a lit fire.

I kept walking, passing the last car parked in the lot, so engrossed, and still, admittedly, somewhat high with adrena­line, that I didn’t even notice the red van idling against the metal fence until I was too close to avoid it. The vehicle smelled of hamburgers, Febreze, and car wash. The sweet bubble-gum smell of the latter twigged a scent recall. I looked, and saw Robson Trowbridge in the driver’s seat talking to Geezer-Were. Eyes averted, I walked past the rear of the van, Merry tight in my fi st.

Geezer-Were opened the window.

Were scent, fragrant as the woods that I was heading to, reached out to me. Silence as I passed. I don’t know who would screw around with a pause, but this one struck me as pregnant. I held my breath, kept my gait casual, and won­dered how fast I could run. As fast as a full-blood Were? I skipped over the barrier between this parking lot and the next, and made it onto the gas station’s patched asphalt. I didn’t change my speed until I had made it around the repair shop, then I broke into a light trot.

Lou’s next flood of pictures came with no warning. An aisle in the bookstore. A path with trees, leaves whipping out in the wind. A dark uniform. Something glinting gold. An arm with a sword, raised high. Then bushes, and ground. Lou’s hand reaching for a rock. Booted feet passing the veg­etation.

As abruptly as they came, they were gone. No visions, no pictures, no fear. I was back in the “here.” I took another lungful of air.

The entry to the ravine was another half block ahead. I tightened the straps on my backpack and picked up the tempo. Lou would be waiting for me at home. So would my bed, and my dreams. I found my feet slowing. I was early anyhow. If I came home too early, she’d ask why. I walked twelve feet along the ravine path thinking about that before I stepped off the trail to find a tree for Merry.

If anyone passed, it looked like I was just leaning against the tree, thinking up poetry, and really that’s what I was doing. The tree-leaning bit; not the poetry.

I don’t have to do much to feed Merry—there’s no can-opening, or big bags to lug—so I have plenty of time to think. Once I find a tree and plop her on a limb, all I have to do is stand guard as she chows down. True, I have to be particu­lar about the type of tree. It has to be green, preferably wild. She prefers hardwoods. Pines and spruces make her turn an unattractive yellow-brown. In a pinch, flowers at a grocery store will do, but they really fall into the fast food category. She doesn’t get much juice from them. Not enough to last more than a few days, anyhow. Don’t ask me to explain the mechanics. She doesn’t watch me when I’m soaping up in the shower, and I don’t observe her too closely as she sucks down some tree essence. It gives me a chance to think, that half hour while she’s eating. Some of my best thoughts happen then. Some of my worst too.

I’d cried for three hours the day Robson Trowbridge mar­ried Candace Temple. I might have gone longer, but my twin Lexi bartered two of his X-Men comics for one hour of si­lence. So I stopped, but felt tragic and misunderstood, even as I turned the pages and ate a brownie. But then of course, I’d been twelve, and I’d thought marriages were eternal honey­moons. Since then, I’ve seen enough human  unions to know that’s just another myth. Sort of sucks for Weres though. When they say “I do,” they’re saying it for life. If one mate dies, the other follows. Sometimes right away, sometimes it takes a few grieving months. I didn’t need to be told that. I’d listened to my dad’s heart stop, and then my mum’s. That’s the deal; the sour side of having a true mate.

“How am I going to keep Lou’s dreams out of my head now, Merry?” I used the rough tree bark to scratch a spot be­tween my shoulder blades, as I worried the problem. Without a job, I had no distraction from Lou. “I wish I knew how to keep her out.”

The constant dribble of Lou’s thought pictures and dreams was wearing me thin. I couldn’t sleep without being over­whelmed by them, and the problem had grown intolerable since she’d taken to napping during the day. Thought-pictures I could handle. But when her nighttime dreams became my daytime terrors? I  can’t explain how equally repugnant and fascinating I found it. Prior to this, I’d needed no defense against Lou’s fragmenting mind. We’d been two separate be­ings with a whole bunch of white space between us. We didn’t even exchange thought-pictures like I used to with Mum and Lexi.

Handy things, thought-pictures. You can get a lot across with two well- selected ones. For example, imagine a picture of one twin batting the other over the head with something hard. See? Bet you have an immediate opinion about that. If you don’t like your sibling, you may think, “Hah, good.” But if you’re one of those humans with delicate sensibilities—you know, one of those manual-reading mums who believe in naughty corners—well, your first thought might be, “That’s terrible.”

Now  here’s where the skill comes in. It’s all about the next image. Pair the picture of Helen hitting Lexi with her shoe, followed immediately by an image of Helen’s mother frowning fiercely. Neat, huh? You have an opinion and a les­son delivered in two quick images.

Merry signaled that she was finished with the tree by roll­ing off the branch. “You done already?” She pointed to an­other tree; one with different-shaped leaves. “You know, you’re getting as fussy as a cat.” I picked my way through the knee-high vegetation and reached up to place her on the low­est limb.

I could live with Lou’s thought-pictures, but increasingly, the images  were melting into dream fragments and that just scared the shit out of me. The first act was considered non­threatening; it was common practice among the Fae to share a static mental snapshot or two with their blood relatives. But sharing dreams? Those are dangerous things, aren’t they? Your unconscious is at the controls, and he’s that bad relative that gets drunk at the wedding, and tells all the family secrets.

Anyhow, for most Fae-born, the issue was moot. They simply  weren’t born with the ability to send or receive an­other’s dreams.

Most of them.

The first non-Hedi dream I ever experienced was Lexi’s. For want of a better word, I was dream-napped. My conscious self was caught and dragged into my twin’s unconscious mind, as if it were something sticky on the aural plane that got tangled in the trawling hooks of his dream. That’s what it feels like. Nothing at all like a thought-picture’s discreet knock. A slip, a slide backward, and then, that feeling, that awful, dreadful wrongness, as if you’d taken off your skin, and squirmed into another’s. Once in, there was no out. You were forced to stay in it until the dream ended—an unwilling spectator to what they saw, an unwilling receptor for what they felt.

Merry tugged her chain to get my attention. I opened my palm and as my fingers closed over her, I felt soothing warmth seep into my skin. “Let’s go home, Merry.”

I started walking again, following the trail through the woods, but my mind was still on the first time I heard men­tion of Threall.

The morning after my first dream-walk, I told Mum that Lexi had slid his dream into my head. Absolute horror twisted her features. “Threall.” She grabbed my hand, yanking me out of the kitchen faster than you could say, “Lexi stole the last macaroon.” Next thing I knew, I was sitting on the edge of my parents’ bed watching her shut the door softly behind us. She rested her ear against it for a moment and then turned to ask me questions in that low, tense un-Mum-like voice, and when I was done answering, she was silent for a long time.

She sat down. Without looking, she pointed to the coins on their dresser. A penny lifted from its surface and floated gracefully to me. I reached for it.

“No, Helen, listen and watch.” She waited until my hands were back in my lap, and then said slowly, “You know that there are two different realms. The world to which you were born.” She made the penny jiggle. “And another, in which the Fae live, called—”


A quarter flew across the air, and hovered above the penny. “Yes, Merenwyn.” She made it spin so its bright sil­ver surface caught the early morning light. Her eyes soft­ened as she watched it. “I wish you could see it.”

“Why  can’t you take us there?” I tucked my hair behind my ear. “You used a portal to come here, why  can’t we open one and go there?”

“I made an oath that I would never cross a portal again. It’s an oath I cannot break.” She touched my hair. “Even if I could return home, I couldn’t bring you with me. The mages keyed the gates to open only for those with Fae blood.”

“I have Fae blood.” I fingered the bedspread.

“But you also have Were.” She gave me a slight smile. “The gates would sense that and might not let you pass. I don’t want you to ever try it, okay? Promise me?” When I didn’t respond, her voice got sharper. “Helen, using one is not like walking through a doorway. Even for a full- blooded Fae, it’s disorienting and dangerous.”

“I could do it.”

“Could you? When the gate is open, you see right to the other world, like you’re looking through a round window. It tricks your mind. You expect to cross a flat plateau, but instead your body is pulled upward at a great speed. It’s terrifying the first time, even if you’ve been told to expect it. If you lose fo­cus of where you need to go, you can be pulled into the wind, and killed. They train your mind for weeks before you’re al­lowed to even think of stepping into a portal.”

“Who trains you?” I asked, my mind already wandering.

“There’s something more important for us to talk about.” She turned her head, and levitated all the coins sitting on the dresser into the air, squinting at them until she spotted the flat washer that Dad had put in his pocket and never re­turned to the jar in the garage.

“There is a third realm called Threall. It lies between this world and Merenwyn.” The flat disk floated across the room. It slipped into the empty place between the Merenwyn quar­ter and the earthly penny. I studied the stacked coins float­ing in space.

“Threall looks like a washer stuck between a penny and quarter?”

The coins dropped to the bedspread. “No, Helen. It does not look like that.”

“Then what does it look like?”

She sighed, but didn’t squeeze the bridge of her nose like she usually did after some of my questions. Instead, she picked up the quarter and the penny. “It’s said to be a land of mists and bad things. They say a part of every Fae lives in Threall, the dreaming portion of us.” She pressed her hand to her heart. “It should be sacred, not a place anyone can visit.”

I gazed dubiously at the dull piece of metal lying on the quilt. “How do you know Threall exists if no one has ever seen it?”

“There are some who can travel there.”

I gave her the “aha” look. “So there’s a portal.”

“No, Helen. There is no portal. Only mystwalkers can travel to Threall.”


“With their mind. Once trained, a mystwalker can create a second body in the world of mists, and walk on two feet, just as she does in Merenwyn.”

“Cool,” I said.

“No. Not cool. Mystwalkers search for people’s souls in Threall, Helen, and once they find them, they can do great harm.”

“Huh.” There were a few Weres I felt like harming.

“Don’t look like that.” Her fingers gripped mine. “There’s a reason I’m telling you this. Look at me.” Her eyes were so fierce. “Do you know how they find mystwalkers? They search for children born with the gift of walking into others’ dreams. Those children are brought to the King’s Court. Their gifts are tested. If they don’t have enough raw talent, they’re killed, and if they’re not killed, they become wards of the court. The King’s Court is not a place for any child. Those children, the ones who make it to adulthood, they become . . .”


“Mad and soulless. The royal family trains them to walk in the mists, and do things there that Faes consider soul de­stroying.”

“Like what?”

“They steal others’ gifts. They plant seeds of madness in their enemies’ heads.”


“Helen, it’s not a talent I want you to develop. It’s not a good thing.” Her grip turned crushing. “It’s a terrible crime to steal someone’s talent. Mystwalkers are shunned by all except their trainers. The lucky ones die young before they are driven mad, or worse, disappear.”

“Where do they disappear to?” My voice sounded small.

“Their souls stay in Threall. It gets harder and harder for them to come back, and one day they never do. Their body dies in Merenwyn, and the mystwalker is never heard from again. They say they float on the winds of Threall, crying for their home.”

I bent my head to study the washer lying innocently on the chenille spread.

She lifted my face with mum-loving hands. “Don’t walk in others’ dreams. If you feel yourself being pulled into one, re­sist. Never travel to Threall. Ever. Never admit to anyone that you know anything about dream-walking. Anyone, do you understand? Don’t tell your brother, don’t tell your friends, don’t tell your father. But most important, never mention it to a Fae. Do you understand? Helen, it’s very important. Myst­walkers always come to a bad end. Threall is a bad place. It can hurt you.”

She got down on one knee, gazed deeply into my eyes, and repeated the last sentence, but slowly, as if each word were an individual sentence, turning the comment into a four-word paragraph heavy with meaning. Dream-walking was bad. Threall was bad.

But it was like having something stuck between your teeth, and never being able to get it out. I didn’t want to get her all upset, so I didn’t point out that I had no friends other than Lexi, and that I was unlikely to ever meet another Fae. Instead, I rationalized that two out of three was good enough, and as soon as Mum and Dad fell asleep that night, I trotted over to Lexi’s room, shook him awake, and asked if he ever dream- walked.

No horror on his face. He said, “Shut up.” Then he rolled over.

Clearly, he never felt the terrible suck of his waking mind being pulled into someone’s dreaming one. For once, I knew something Lexi didn’t. And right there I decided it was one secret I wasn’t going to whisper into his eager ears.

We already shared so much, a lot of it unwillingly. Does anyone really want to fight for elbow space in a womb? Be perpetually twelve minutes behind? Yeah, sure, there were probably advantages to being second—there  were baby pic­tures of a pointy-headed Lexi—but the downside is that you start out not being first. And it seemed my legs were never long enough to catch up. For our first ten years of life, my brother plowed a trail ahead, leaving me to follow in his wake. Predictably, he was the first to walk. First to talk (and yap, yap, yap, did he ever talk). First one to dare to wander off the property and explore where he wasn’t supposed to explore. First one to be brought home by the Alpha after that adventure, looking muddy and wet, and more pissed than a cocker spaniel who’s been denied a treat.

Fae Stars, I miss him. It’s not something a singleton can understand; the depth of grief a twin feels over the loss of their sibling. Except maybe if I explain it to you this way: once I stood on three legs. Now I wobble on two.

But the future wasn’t something I thought much about back then. Like every other self- absorbed twelve-year old, I took it for granted that my brother would always be there; part best friend, part worst enemy. Mine to love and abuse. And so, I got mulish about the following. I got selfish about the sharing. And maybe Lexi did too. Maybe his heedless race through our short shared life was an effort to distance himself from me—the bobbing cork that followed the cur­rents left behind him.

But still, even after Mum’s talk, I kept poking at the idea of Threall. I wanted to see it, just once. The best way, I reasoned, would be to visualize “up.” It’s how I manipulate my magic. Think the word, and let her rip. And besides, I strongly doubted that you needed to create another body up in Threall. Why couldn’t you just take your own up there, and bypass the whole “lost my body” problem?

So I sat there, cross-legged on my bed, and thought “up.” After a bit, I tried a different thought. “Lift.” Then I strong- armed it. I kept thinking “up” until sweat broke out on my brow and I felt queasy, and then suddenly, I felt a tearing inside me, so strong, it was as if a giant had my head in one hand and my toes in the other and was determined to stretch me like a piece of taffy.

At the onset of the pain, my concentration splintered, and took with it that horrible rending sensation. I curled up in a ball on my bed, held my stomach, and decided right there that I’d never try again. In fact, I added a codicil to my pledge: if dream-walking had anything to do with Threall, I’d resist be­ing pulled into any vision. I’d turn away. I’d stay awake.

Scary stuff, Threall.

I exited the nature trail and turned down our street.

Funny how life works out. Pledges aren’t so much broken as worn down. I’d gone from thought-picture deprived to dream overloaded. And even though the circles under my eyes were starting to look like purple bruises, I still wouldn’t speak to Lou about it.

How could I tell her I was an untrained mystwalker?

And there was more. Stuff I didn’t like to admit. There was something in the pull of my crazy aunt’s unconscious that I liked. For all my horror, for all my fatigue, there was a part of me that craved being dragged into her dreams. Some­thing in me enjoyed thumbing through her thoughts and memories. Sometimes—so rarely—I saw Merenwyn. Some­times I saw my mother again. And sometimes I saw things that frightened me.

But it’s like a Fae version of Pandora’s box, right? You have the box, you’re not supposed to open it, and then some­how it’s open, and whooee, the stuff you find in there.

Fascinating, scary stuff.

Sometimes I wonder if it wouldn’t be easier to be bat-shit crazy like my aunt.


Chapter 2

Raymond Street was a place that tried hard years ago to be more than it was—and failed. Some fifty years back, a few knuckleheads thought they could make another shopping district in our town. Considering that Deerfield is a small dot on the map between the cities of Toronto and Hamilton, they were being overly optimistic. They pulled down old houses to replace them with the square flat boxes favored by the sixties developers. The consequence of their planning were four blocks of flat gray brick storefronts leading de­pressingly toward the lake.

Now it was the street that sold dirty videos.

Home was the top apartment over a used bookstore called Twice Read Books, owned and operated by a guy whose vi­sion had slowly eroded until he had to hold the books up to the light and squint through a magnifying glass to read the sales sticker. Bob came from money, which was good, con­sidering how his life had run. He owned the building, so he never had to worry about paying rent for his money-losing business, while the rents that he collected for the two apart­ments over his store were enough to keep him in the black.

The entrance to our apartment was an anonymous brown door in the back parking lot. I started up the stairs feeling the bite of my backpack’s strap. It wasn’t all that heavy. I carried a change purse, two tins of maple syrup—the Fae-born’s preferred food group—plus a silver travel mug, four books that had come into my hands during my tenure at the café, and a hoodie liberated from the coffee shop’s lost and found. That and guilt made it feel heavier though. There was rent to pay, and syrup to buy when this lot was gone, and not a hell of a lot left in the kitty. I should have stolen something worth pawning.

The door to the apartment was unlocked. Again. Any thief could walk in and help themselves to our stuff. I thought about that as I eased the door shut, and tiptoed down the cor­ridor past Lou’s dark bedroom.

Safe in my own room, I toed off my shoes and tossed my glasses on the bed. Then I stood for a bit, rubbing my elbow.

How do you find someone to mind a batty Fae princess? Can you imagine that ad? Wanted: Someone who can en­dure being called a pestilent mortal, will work for almost nothing, is nimble enough to dodge projectiles, and finds it easy to rationalize every weird thing she sees happening in our apartment.

My fingers started stroking the peaked tip of my ear.

And then it occurred to me—I hadn’t made it to my bed­room undetected in months.

Oh crap.

I pressed my ear against the back door to Bob’s store. Okay, if I was a full Were, I  wouldn’t have to do that. I’d be able to detect the discreet blip of a mouse’s fart right through the bricks. Hell, I’d hear a bird drop a feather as it winged its way over the parking lot.

I think.

There is, technically, a lot I don’t know about Weres, even though I lived among them for the first twelve years of my life. When they’re not tracking a flea with their sharp teeth, they prefer to live like humans—they have mortgages and jobs, pay their car payments and taxes—but underneath that, they’re different. And exactly how much so is something they don’t share with someone who wasn’t 99 percent  Were.

Secretive lot, the bunch of them. I know from experience that their ears could pick up just about anything. You could keep your face absolutely blank, so they couldn’t read your expression, but the bastards could hear your heart speed up, and know that their insult scored a hit. It’s why Lexi and I mostly traded thought-pictures during school hours at the private school in Creemore where the pack’s young were taught human stuff. Our moon-charmed classmates couldn’t read our minds, and considering what I thought about most of them, that was probably a good thing.

Bob  wasn’t doing much talking on the other side of the door. His son, loathsome Lyle, was though. Annoying stuff, like how to start the eviction process.

I pushed open the door and stood there, quietly taking in the damage left by Hurricane Lou. Not too bad at fi rst glance. A lot of books strewn around. One of the fl imsier book turnstiles was tilted, but that could be fixed by jam­ming a book under its front legs.

Bob turned when Lyle said, “You!”

He was old, Bob. I don’t know how old, but he was really ancient. Maybe sixty. Usually you didn’t notice his age be­cause he wears Coke-bottle glasses that overwhelm his fea­tures. But now his face was naked, and his eyes were normal sized and tired. Where the glasses habitually sat on the bridge of his nose was a dent, and around that, a painful-looking scrape.

“Did she break your glasses?”

“No.” He had another red scrape on his cheekbone. “But they’re not comfortable to wear right now.”

“We’re going to sue,” Lyle snapped. He might have gone on, but Bob lifted a staying hand, so Lyle ceased, lips clamped tight, his eyes narrowed on me like a thwarted cat. I’m pretty sure Bob still owned the deed for loathsome Lyle’s  house.

“Most of this came from tripping over my own books.”

“Because she shoved him after she called him a troll,” threw in Lyle.

“I’ll do the talking, Lyle.” He patted the air behind him for his stool. “She came in the back way, and she was already angry. Babbling something about the evil ones and another word. Something to do with mourning.”

Merenwyn. Not angry then, I thought. Frightened.

“I told her you’d be home soon. She started to leave and then she saw the book on the counter, you know, the new one on display by the cash register. The one with—”

“Fairies on the front of it,” I said.

Bob offered me a faint smile. “She said it was an abomi­nation.”


“She started taking books off the shelf and throwing them at me. I went to call for Lyle, but—”

“She pushed him,” Lyle said. “We’re going to file charges.”

“Lyle . . . let me tell it my way.” Bob finally found the chair and sat down on it. “My glasses had fallen off and I couldn’t find them. I couldn’t see well enough to dial his number.”

“So you called 911. And they sent the police.” I swal­lowed, imagining it all in my head.

“Before they even got  here, she was out on the street. She got hold of that rolling display I put out every morning, and she was emptying it, throwing the books at passing cars, screaming insults at people. Plague carriers?”

“Mortals. Pestilent mortals,” I said.

Bob nodded as he stacked a book on top of two others. His fingers felt for the edges, and set them in a perfect tower. “The whole street backed up. Two cop cars came.”

“Did they touch her?”

“Yes. Then it turned really ugly.” His lips flattened. “She started screaming ‘It burns, it burns.’ ”

Skin-to-skin contact would have raised blisters wherever their mortal hands touched. It hurts worse than holding a curling iron to your neck and counting to five.

“The woman is out of her mind, Hedi.” Bob’s face was concerned and bruised. “You know that, don’t you? She can’t be left alone anymore.”

“Where’d they take her?”

“To the hospital in an ambulance. There were burns on her wrists. I sent Lyle up to check your apartment but he  couldn’t find anything left on, or signs that she’d scalded herself with the kettle. We don’t know how she hurt herself.”

Lyle in our home. It didn’t bear thinking about. I pushed my glasses up my nose. A hospital. I could break her out of a hospital.

“Hey,” said Lyle as I turned to go.

“If you total up the damage, I’ll pay for it.” Another lie. Maybe Karma was snoozing and wouldn’t notice.

There is always someone who has control over the button. It’s never wise to piss that person off.

In this case, it was a fat forty-something woman seated behind the reception desk at Beacon Memorial. I made the mistake of going straight for the doors to the treatment rooms, which messed up protocol in all sorts of ways, and ignored her importance as the guardian of the open- sesame button.

She made me wait. And wait. People went in, people came out. Two weary policemen escorted an agitated man cuffed to a gurney into the treatment rooms. For a moment, as the doors swung open, I thought about slipping in via their wake but she was watching me, so I sat, and waited and tried to look like every other person waiting in the waiting room. Bored. Inside I was contemplating flattening the re­ceptionist with her own computer screen. I was fretting over metal handcuffs, and I was thinking about ties. Not the ties that handcuff you to a gurney, but the ties that handcuff you to a past, present, and future.

Finally, after forty minutes, she pressed the button and let me in.

“My aunt was brought in,” I said to a nurse in the hall.

“And she is?”

“Louise Rogers.”

“Ah.” I was handed down the line like an explosive pack­age, until her case nurse escorted me to a curtained cubicle. A note had been taped to the curtain: Gloves only.

The curtains rattled as she pulled them open. They’d taken Lou’s clothes and put her into a blue hospital gown. The white sheet was pulled up to her waist. The hospital gown gaped at the neck. Her eyes  were half open, half closed, exposing unfo­cused dead gray pupils. Up and down her left arm  were burns, some livid red and some liquid filled. Someone had tied her wrists to the sides of the bed with white gauze. A needle had been inserted in one blue vein. A drip bag hung from a metal stand.

“What’s in the bag?”

“She’s dehydrated, so we’ve got her on fluids. She was given a sedative as well. It affected her more than we antici­pated.” She checked the fluid level and reached for Lou’s chart. “Is there any immediate family we can call?”

“I am her family.”

“She’s your guardian?”

I shrugged my shoulders. “No, I’m hers.”

“How old are you?” she asked, frowning down at me.

Whatis it? Is it because I’m short? Or because my face is baby-shaped? I’m going to be carded until I’m forty. I added a year. “Twenty-three.”

She didn’t look like she believed me, but she didn’t ask for the fake driver’s license I’d been forced to spend two hundred bucks on—it’s impossible to get a job or even a bus pass in Deerfield without some sort of ID—which was too bad, be­cause the new card was a beauty and I hadn’t had a chance to air it yet. There was another piece of gauze taped to the inside of Lou’s elbow. I tilted my head toward it inquiringly.

“We had to take some blood tests.  We’re waiting on the results. The sedative really knocked her out. Is she on any medication?”

“No.” Except for the slow rise of her chest, Lou looked dead.

“We’re concerned about her burns. Do you know how she got them?”

“I was at work.”

“Hmm.” The nurse made a note on her chart. “There are some older burns too. Maybe she got them a couple of weeks ago? Do you know anything about them?”

They just looked older. She got all her wounds at the same time, a couple of hours ago when the cop tried to subdue her. The touch from a mortal male burns a female Fae—the result of some Mage spell that kicks in at birth—all because some ninny on the Royal Court started worrying that humans might foul their gene pool. The truth was, she didn’t heal very well anymore. The mechanism was still inside her, trying to heal her, but it was weak and fitful like her moods. It had healed some, already, but was slowing down on others, making it seem like she had a long history of being burned. Try explain­ing that to a human. Try explaining anything about my life to a human.

The Fae don’t fade out in a logical fashion, as if someone had a checklist and a panel of switches. Do they all fade like that? I don’t know. I’ve never seen one do it before Lou. And as far as I knew, Lou was the last Fae on this side of the portal to Merenwyn.

She hadn’t been able to Call to the Seven in months. That was her talent—calling metals. In Merenwyn she was known as the Collector. She was able to call to precious metal with her voice and hands, and it would melt and roll right to her, to collect in a puddle by her feet. She could do that with all the seven: gold, copper, silver, lead, tin, mercury, and—this is where her talent came in real value for Merenwyn’s royal family—iron. Gold was valuable, silver was pretty, but iron was deadly. Enough of it could render a strong ruler as weak as a drooling infant.

She told me she was one of only two living Fae who had the talent. I could never understand why they let her stay on this side of the portal, after my parents died, if her skills were so prized. Before they closed the portals that night, they must have sounded some sort of retreat before they slammed the doors. Humans blamed the horrific sound of the barricades coming down on a minor earthquake, but they  were wrong. That loud earth- trembling boom was the sound of gates clos­ing simultaneously, forever ensuring that this world and the other would never touch again.

Lou’s hands were curled like claws on the white sheet. The skin on them was thin, but her nails still grew long and diamond-hard. “Where is her ring?” I asked.

“I beg your pardon?”

My voice was sharp. “She wears a small green ring on her baby finger. It’s missing.”

“Oh, that thing,” the nurse said. “She scratched one of our nurses during admissions with it. We locked it away for safe­keeping.”

“I want it returned right now.”

“Fine. The receptionist has the key. When she comes back from break, I’ll get it from her.” Her tone was cool. “In the meantime, maybe we can get your information. And later, someone from social services will need to talk with you.” She pulled the curtains wide and bustled out.

There was one blue plastic chair, jammed under the shelf with the box of gloves. I pulled it out and sat down. And then I leaned back to pull the curtains closed again. My last remaining relative was tied to a bed in a human hospital. I didn’t have the right to feel sorry for myself. Not one bit.

As I worked at the knot on her restraint, I studied Lou. She was too thin, too yellow. I was losing her. I’d been losing her for the last half year. A year ago Lou could have passed for a thirty-five-year-old. Now, her scalp played peekaboo with what was left of her long hair. If you stared hard at her, hard enough to ignore the slack skin, you’d realize that her features were still handsome. But the fading was relentless. The fat had melted away from her face as fast as her muscles withered, leaving crepe skin and jowls. Without that padding to soften her edges, her nose appeared sharper and predatory, her mouth a thin, pale gash.

She wasn’t an old lady. She was just a Fae on the wrong side of the portal, without a key to get back. There wasn’t enough magic and maple syrup to keep her  here.

Would I wither like her one day? I have my own measure of Fae blood, but it’s diluted—poisoned, Lou once said—by the Were blood running in my veins. Sometimes I find my­self thinking too long about whether I’ll fade like Lou, or live long like a  Were.

The nurse jerked the curtains wide. “Do you have her health card?”

I stepped outside the cubicle, pulled the curtains all the way until one edge met the other snugly, and then followed the nurse.

After some creative form-filling, I took a slow stroll through the hallways. The nurse still had me in her sights, so the best thing to do was to map out our escape. As far as I could tell, there were only two ways to get in; through the swinging doors at reception and through the back hall that lead to the imaging department. At first glance, the back hall seemed like the best way of moving her out of the hos­pital, but there was a long corridor leading to it, and leaning against the wall were the two cops, their belts bristling with things that could do serious harm. Talking to them was a couple of paramedics.

The cops’ eyes flicked to me as I passed. There was a door ahead for the women’s washroom, and I took it. I closed the door and locked it.

“Merry?” I pressed my hand to my chest. “I need to talk.” Fae Stars. The washroom smelled even worse than the hall­ways. I pulled my white blouse away from my chest, looked down and tried again. “Merry?” Nestled between my breasts, Merry remained stiff and unyielding.

“Stop sulking.”

Merry didn’t stir, unwind, or even change color. That was the measure of her hatred for Lou. She was in her usual place, the inside curve of my left breast, tucked warm between the lace of my bra and my skin, pretending to be asleep. Some­where during that anxious jog to the hospital, she’d reverted back to her original design. Golden strands of elegantly en­twined ivy formed a protective basketwork around the cloudy amber of her stone. “Gone baroque, huh?” I gave her a dis­gusted prod. “You know, sometimes I feel like taking you off my neck, and leaving you hanging in a rack of costume jewelery at Zellers. All I wanted you to do was listen while I worked out a plan.”

No response. No pulse of heat, no change in color. When she wanted, my Asrai could look as dumb as a rock.

I emerged from the washroom, pausing on the threshold to fastidiously dry my hands. The tally had swollen to two cops and three paramedics. All of them looked like they worked out.

The nurse stopped me on the way back to Lou’s bedside. “Here’s her ring.”

I tore open the envelope and shook into my palm the only piece of jewelry I’d ever seen Lou wear. As befitting a ring designed to go on a woman’s baby finger, the design was simple. A narrow strip of gold had been fashioned into a ser­pentine cradle for one dull, irregularly shaped green stone. Uncut and unpolished, the gem was unlovely, except for one little perk. With the emerald on her finger, Lou could lie— breathtakingly huge whoppers—and do so without a flicker of her eyelash to betray her deception. Which was a bonus as Lou was pure Fae, and was born handicapped by their natural inability to tell an untruth, something that could have posed a huge problem to us, considering that we lived a life on the margins of the criminal world.

Possibly we might have limped along without her needing it. Faes can’t lie, but they can do wonders with misdirection. Still, I was grateful for the fact that somehow, somewhere, Lou had charmed a mage out of his ring. It made life easier. When I  wasn’t around to lie for her, she could do so on her own, providing she rubbed the gem before she spoke. Once, for payment to the ring’s dark magic. The second time, to seal the lie. Sort of like a compound fib tax.

I slipped the ring over her knuckle and sat down beside her with a sigh.

I hate thinking. I hate that whole, contemplate your life, find your inner self, hug your tree, kiss your neighbor mind trap that comes from watching too much daytime TV. I’d rather be entertained. Give me a book. Show me a movie. Be a human. That’s comedy enough. Don’t ask me to sit and think. Don’t ask me to come up with a plan.

Step one. Wake up Lou. From my backpack, I pulled out the maple syrup I’d bought on the way to work. I smeared some on my finger and put it to her lips. Her mouth softened, and the tip of her tongue reached out for it. Her thin lips opened wider. After the second mouthful, she shut her eyes against the artificial light. I was so damn grateful, I forgot myself and put my hand to her face.

There was no warning, no slow slip into her head: I was just suddenly in there, experiencing one of her memories. The colors hit me first. All of them were supersaturated, as if gray didn’t belong in the palette. I couldn’t have pulled my hand off her face for the life of me, for she was in Meren­wyn, and she rarely allowed herself to think of home.

Lou is outdoors, looking at a man standing with his back turned to us. It’s a nice, well-developed back in a gray T-shirt that has gone through the spin cycle enough times to get thin and tight on the shoulders. There’s a painting of Champlain in the same pose, staring at the river that he probably thought was going to be called Champlain, but ended up being called the St. Lawrence. Change the boots for sneakers, and it’s es­sentially the same guy. This guy’s tawny hair is shorter, but he has one foot propped on a stony outcrop. Like the French explorer, his hand rests on his thigh, while the other sits on his hip. Even without seeing his face, you know this man un­derstands his own attraction. It’s something in the pose, something in the arrogance of that straight back.


Beyond him, impossibly green trees grow upside down into a fluffy bank of clouds above a layer of brilliant blue. A breeze picks up a lock of his hair. A fish jumps in the pool, its scales glittering in the sun. Suddenly, it all made sense: the upside-down trees, the reversal of clouds and sky. The smooth surface of the natural pond is catching the reflec­tion of the surrounding trees and sky.

Don’t let him despoil that pool,I think. But in Lou’s thoughts, the breeze plays with his hair like a lover, while the clouds slide across the brilliant sky.

“Don’t touch me,” Lou said peevishly, as her dream abruptly disappeared from my vision. My chair screeched as I bolted backward. For a second I gaped at her, horrified at my thoughts. She could have dragged me to Threall and back again, and I  wouldn’t have tried to fight her. Fae Stars, I’d been so Fae-struck by Merenwyn, my only worry had been whether the dream would end. I breathed carefully, willing my racing heart to settle. It had been running in my head, like the chorus to a ballad. Stay, stay in the dream. Damn, Mum was right: those dreams were dangerous.

“More,” she demanded, without opening her eyes. Care­fully, I stood to dribble another mouthful of syrup into her. She swallowed and then rolled her head to look at me. “There are a lot of mortals here,” she said.

“I know.” She focused on me, her fingers plucking at her bed cover­let, her forehead creased. “I want to go home.”

Copyright © 2012 by Leigh Evans

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Leigh Evans lives in Southern Ontario with her husband and a short, fat, black dog. She’s raised two kids, mothered three dogs, and herded a few cats. Other than that, her life has been fairly boring.