Jan 10 2017 12:00pm
Jackie Ashenden Excerpt: The Billionaire’s Virgin
Xavier De Santis: Charming. Disgraced. Playboy.
The headlines are always shouting about the excesses of the so-called Prince Charming of the De Santis family. Problem is, Xavier is everything they say he is.
But now he’s gone too far, and he has has been ordered to clean up his image. Volunteering at a homeless shelter, Xavier sees a bright light amidst all the bleakness. An angel whose luminous face and tragic beauty call to him in ways he can’t explain.
Mia: Homeless. Vulnerable. Virgin.
When the shelter Mia calls home closes, she is left with nowhere to go. Nowhere except the luxurious, glorious palace of a home where Xavier De Santis has invited her to stay. This too-handsome billionaire is dark, dangerous…and also too good to be true.
Surely Mia can indulge in her fantasies and escape the hardness of her daily life for just one night?
As one night turns into two, Mia knows that eventually, the magic will end. She can't keep the beautiful clothes. She can't keep the soft bed. And most of all, she can't keep the hard, handsome man who makes her crave his touch with every breath she takes.
Mia doesn't belong in his world. But as Xavier tempts his rags-to-riches heroine with exquisite pleasure and heady desire, Mia may have no choice but to surrender to him completely.
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As Xavier de Santis, billionaire bad boy and youngest son of the second richest man in New York, slopped stew into the tin plates of the poor and needy at the Midtown homeless shelter his father had forced him to volunteer at, he realized it wasn’t the actual physical reality of Manhattan’s poor and needy that bothered him the most.
It was the smell. Not the unwashed bodies or the unkempt hair or the terrible breath. No, as unpleasant as all that was, that he could deal with.
It was the smell of hopelessness, of despair, that he had difficulty with.
He didn’t know why, since hopelessness and despair were also prevalent in the social circles he moved in, but maybe it was because in his world they were just better hidden. Here, in the people lining up for what was probably their only meal of the day, they were right in his face.
It made him uncomfortable, and if there was one thing Xavier hated, it was being uncomfortable. Especially when being uncomfortable made him run at the mouth like a tool.
“I don’t like it,” he said to the old man with broken teeth who was standing in front of him holding out a plate. “I mean, I’m sorry. I just can’t do despair.” He lifted the ladle of stew and poured it out onto the man’s plate. “Hopelessness, fine. Okay, no, it’s not fine, obviously. But it’s easier somehow, you know?”
The old man looked at him, his face utterly blank, then shuffled on as if Xavier hadn’t spoken.
“What about you?” Xavier asked as another person moved in front of him, another old man who looked ninety but was probably only all of sixty. “Care for a little despair with your hopelessness? Or are you more a despair person with a side order of hopelessness?”
The man blinked at him as if he was speaking Greek.
“Half and half, am I right?” Xavier ladled more stew. “The hopelessness and despair are pretty even and you’re not favoring one or the other? I like that. Life’s all about balance, yes?”
The man shook his head, muttered something under his breath, and moved on to collect his portion of bread, while the volunteer on Xavier’s left shot Xavier a disgusted look.
Right. He was probably talking too much again. But how else was he supposed to get through this? He preferred throwing money at a problem, preferably from a safe distance, not having to stare right into its grim, haggard face and worn, ragged clothes.
Unfortunately though, due to a drunken brawl with a paparazzo who’d been shoving his stupid fucking camera in Xavier’s face, Xavier got to get right up close and personal with it.
The paparazzo, like so many of them, had been an asshole, instantly seeing dollar signs the moment Xavier had grabbed the offending camera and flung it into a nearby trash can. Dollar signs meaning assault charges, despite the fact that Xavier had barely touched him.
Normally Cesare de Santis, head of De Santis Corp, the country’s biggest personal security manufacturer, and Xavier’s father, usually let his sons deal with their own problems, but in this instance, he’d had to step into the breach, using his influence and liberal amounts of cash to make the pap drop the charges. He’d also made it very clear to Xavier that a public show of penitence was required, since having the de Santis name associated with violence was a step too far for buyers who didn’t like to be reminded that personal security included weapons and that weapons could be actually used to kill people.
“Protection’s what they’re buying,” his father had always said. “And that’s what we’re selling.”
Xavier had no problem with that. What he did have a problem with was apologizing. That and abasing himself. He was a goddamn de Santis and he didn’t have to prove how sorry he was for what he’d done, because (a) he wasn’t very sorry and (b) he hadn’t even landed a punch, though he’d very much wanted to.
Still, it was either volunteer at the shelter or lose the one thing in entire world he actually wanted, the one thing he’d spent most of his adult life working toward: ownership of his late mother’s Wyoming ranch.
Blue Skies was owned by his father now and because Cesare knew Xavier wanted it, he held it over Xavier’s head at every opportunity in order to get his son to do what he wanted. Cesare de Santis was a manipulative bastard and the real kicker was that it worked.
If Xavier wanted that ranch—and he wanted it very, very badly indeed—he had to do whatever his father said. Which meant working in De Santis Corp as a glorified salesman, demonstrating new products, sucking up to potential clients, and generally being the happy poster boy for De Santis Personal Security systems.
It was also why he was in this shitty Midtown homeless shelter, doling out slop, having come to do his volunteer stint straight from a party at the Met.
He hadn’t even bothered changing out of his tux.
Through the window that faced the street, the paparazzi were hanging around, taking pics of him through the glass, though the de Santis security team waiting for him outside were doing their best to move them along.
Xavier smiled and gave them a jaunty wave. Which, on reflection, wasn’t very penitent of him. At all.
The next person moved in front of him, holding out their tray.
“What can I get for you today?” he asked, getting bored now. “Will it be the stew or the stew?”
But it wasn’t an old man standing in front of him this time. It was a woman.
She was little and dressed in a plain, dark blue button down shirt, a dirty brown overcoat at least three sizes too big for her, and a hideous, bright orange woolen beanie pulled down over her head. Her features were delicate and sharply angled, not pretty but intense-looking somehow, and her wide black eyes tilted up at the corners like a cat’s.
Something burned in those eyes, a kind of fire that reached out and grabbed him by the throat, and Xavier, who always had something to say, suddenly couldn’t think of a single word.
She held out her tray, bright black eyes watching him warily.
Reflexively, he smiled at her as he doled out her stew.
Her expression didn’t change in the slightest. In fact, she looked away as if he didn’t exist, moving on to collect some bread from the person next to him.
Xavier blinked. He couldn’t think of the last time a woman hadn’t responded to his smile. Or, come to think of it, had dismissed him so completely. It was enough to give a guy a complex, not that he was one for complexes. Hell, it was even kind of funny that a poor little homeless woman could cut one of New York’s most sought after and notorious bad boys dead.
He grinned to himself and promptly forgot about it.
The next night, though, he was back at the shelter, late this time because he’d been giving a presentation to some government clients who’d insisted on dealing with him personally. He’d impressed the fuck out of them with the new De Santis development in body armor, and since his father had made it clear that if Xavier managed to close this particular contract, he’d be one step closer to getting ownership of the ranch, he was feeling in a particularly good mood.
He whistled as he doled out tonight’s meal—lasagna this time—smiling at the downtrodden lined up in front of him.
Two old men, three middle-aged women, and one young guy with an obvious meth addiction later, Xavier found a hideous burnt orange beanie in his sightline. He frowned, then lowered his gaze to meet a pair of familiar bright black eyes.
It was her. Again.
A curious jolt went through him, which was just downright strange since he didn’t go for women in dirty overcoats and orange beanies. His tastes ran to tall and athletic, or small and voluptuous, he wasn’t that picky on shape, to be fair. If they were into him and he was into them, it was all good. But generally, he preferred to choose his partners from bars or parties, not homeless shelters.
So why this woman should hold his attention was anyone’s guess.
She was just . . . actually, he couldn’t put his finger on what she was. There was a . . . fire in her. A fire he’d never seen in any other woman, or at least not one that burned so brightly. For some completely inexplicable reason, it fascinated him.
He smiled at her again, giving her the full-on Xavier de Santis treatment that usually made women flutter and giggle like teenagers in front of their favorite movie star. But again, this woman blanked him like he wasn’t even there.
This time it wasn’t so amusing.
Oddly irritated for being irritated about it, Xavier put it out of his mind.
Until the next night when she turned up in front of him again, holding out her tray, those fascinating black eyes blinking at him.
“Good evening, madam,” he said, because he’d be damned if he let a woman make him lose the power of speech twice in one week. “Will you be having the caviar?”
She said nothing. And when he doled out the clam chowder, she turned away as if he hadn’t said a thing. Again.
He couldn’t work out why he was so irritated, because what the hell did he care if some woman didn’t respond to his perfectly friendly smiles? She didn’t have to, and no doubt she had far more important stuff to deal with than smiling back. But still.
It needled him.
Night four and he came directly in from the office, still in his bespoke suit and tie, dishing out ladlesful of some godawful vegetable soup. The paparazzi outside had thinned out somewhat, the novelty of a de Santis helping out in a homeless shelter wearing off, which Xavier found a tad galling. He liked being the center of attention, and when the spotlight wasn’t on him he started to get antsy.
As the people lined up for their meal, he found himself glancing at their faces, as if looking for someone. Sure enough, when he spotted that orange beanie, he felt something inside him settle.
Okay, ridiculous as this was, if he could demo the latest De Santis high-tech weaponry to the delight of the military, not to mention the government, then he could at least get some kind of fucking reaction out of one little homeless woman.
She approached him, holding out her tray. But this time Xavier didn’t smile at her and he didn’t say a word. He just looked at her. Looked straight into her black eyes and held her gaze with his, unleashing the full power of the infamous de Santis charisma on her.
She wrinkled her nose and turned away.
This time he wasn’t only irritated. He was annoyed.
Ridiculous to get so worked up about a woman ignoring him, especially when he had so many women falling at his feet, and it really did make him a cliché to be so fascinated by the one woman who didn’t.
But . . . he just couldn’t help it. He was annoyed.
Night five and he decided that if she was there, he was going to ignore her completely. No smile. No nothing. It was stupid for someone like him to let someone like her under his skin, utterly stupid.
But this time the black-eyed woman and her telltale orange beanie wasn’t there.
Not that he cared. He had many other more important things to be worried about, such as securing this government contract and finally getting his father to hand over Blue Skies to him.
He couldn’t fucking wait. It wasn’t that he minded the city—much—but his heart had always been back in Wyoming, where their family had originally come from and where he’d spent summers as a boy. He’d always planned to move back there, though his father didn’t know that quite yet. In fact his father wouldn’t know that until Blue Skies was finally Xavier’s, because he was pretty sure the manipulative old bastard would try and find some way to stop him if he did.
For Cesare de Santis, business—and therefore the entire known universe—revolved around New York, not some ranch in the middle of nowhere, and New York was where he’d insisted his family remain.
But not Xavier. He was going to get out as soon as he could.
Night six, and Xavier had come in before a party he had to go to in Hell’s Kitchen. Only a couple of paparazzi hanging around this time, and these guys were more interested in fiddling around with their phones than in him. Which was aggravating.
He didn’t look for the orange beanie—deliberately didn’t look—and he didn’t say a word to the people lining up for their meals.
Then suddenly there she was in front of him. Wearing the same outfit she’d been wearing three days earlier, that orange beanie pulled down low over her head. There was snow on the shoulders of her overcoat and shadows beneath her dark eyes. But those eyes burned even brighter tonight, as if something had stoked the fire inside her, and he had the oddest impression that he could hold out his hands to her like she was a fire, and his fingers would warm up.
He said nothing as she held out her tray to him, ladling in the same kind of stew that he’d ladled out six nights earlier. But as she turned away to get her bread, he murmured, “You need a new hat.”
Her gaze flickered. And for a second, her dark eyes came to his.
Then she looked away.
It wasn’t much, but it was the first reaction he’d gotten from her, and he felt it like a victory, a surge of satisfaction sweeping through him.
Next time, oh next time, he was going to make sure she didn’t look away.
* * *
The guy was there again, watching her as she found a place at the table and started to eat. Mia could almost feel his eyes drilling holes in her back.
She didn’t like it. She didn’t like him looking at her, seeing her. She didn’t like him watching her like he expected something from her.
Not that it was hard to work out what most men expected from her, but the weird thing with this guy was that she didn’t think he was after sex.
She didn’t know what he was after and that was the thing that unsettled her.
The first night he’d appeared at the shelter, she almost hadn’t been able to look at him, he was so . . . bright. And shiny. And clean.
He’d been in a tux and was so tall, all that spotless black fabric stretching out in front of her, and when she’d looked into his eyes, she’d felt something inside her fall away. They’d been blue. Blue like the little patch of sky she caught glimpses of from her current alleyway hideout.
She didn’t like that either. Not his blue eyes or the shape of his face, the planes and angles of his nose, cheekbones and jaw arranging themselves into something she knew was probably handsome. More than that even. Or his black hair, the way it looked thick and spiky and soft, as if she could sink her fingers into it like a fur coat.
Nope. She didn’t like handsome, blue-eyed, black-haired men in tuxes. They ranked highly on her list of people never to trust, along with cops, social workers, priests, and doctors. Basically anyone telling her they wanted to “help.”
She didn’t need their help. She didn’t need anyone.
Mia gulped her food then got rid of the tray, all the while trying to ignore the man’s eyes watching her. She’d been debating about whether to stay the night in the shelter since it was getting cold outside, but the man made her nervous so she didn’t.
She hurried past him without looking at him again.
He looked like a god and she didn’t trust men who looked like gods.
She didn’t trust gods either.
Especially not ones who made comments about her hat.
That night she huddled in her spot between the Dumpster and the wall of the building behind it. She’d felt very pleased with herself for finding it because there was a hot pipe that ran up the side of the building that she could lean against for warmth. But tonight the cold bit deep, snow swirling in the air, and the hot pipe didn’t feel hot enough.
Fucking winter. She hated it. When it got too cold, she was forced to go back to the shelters full of people coughing and hacking and complaining and crying. People who’d given up on life and on whom life had given up on as well.
She hated that too, the reminder of where her own life was headed if she didn’t find herself a place to live. Then again, it was all attitude, wasn’t it? Those people were a nightmare future she needed to face sometimes, to give her the strength to keep going, keep pushing. Keep surviving.
Because if there was one thing she wasn’t going to do, it was to end up on the streets for the rest of her life. She wasn’t going to end up like Old Catherine, the homeless woman who’d first helped Mia when she’d escaped from her gran and came out onto the streets. Who’d ended up dead in an alleyway with the detritus of her life scattered around her. Missed by no one, mourned by no one. Known by no one. No one except Mia.
Nope, no fucking way she was ending up like that. She was going to get herself off the streets. She was going to get herself a home.
Mia huddled against the pipe and stared up at the night sky, ignoring the sounds of a drug deal going down on the other side of the Dumpster. She couldn’t see the stars in Manhattan, but she knew they were up there. Just like she knew that somewhere there was a home waiting for her.
She only had to keep on believing she’d get there.
The next night she hovered outside the shelter, trying to see through the fogged-up windows if the man was there. It would be a pain in the ass if he was, because she hadn’t managed to find any food all day and, if she wanted to eat then she’d have to have something here. Skipping a meal would be okay—once she’d gone a whole two days without food—but she needed to eat to help her deal with the cold.
“Mia?” Tony, one of the volunteers, was on the door and he smiled at her. “Are you coming in tonight?”
Tony was one of the better volunteers. He didn’t ask questions and he didn’t try to force her into anything she didn’t want to do. He listened—well, mostly listened. When she’d started asking questions about how to find somewhere to live, he’d been helpful, explaining what things she had to get—birth certificate, social security number, bank account. Things she didn’t have, but needed to in order to get a place to live.
He’d offered her accommodation too. In one of the larger shelters where she could have her own room, but she didn’t want that. She wanted something permanent. That wouldn’t blow away, or get moved on, or washed away in the next rainstorm. She wanted something that would be forever.
She tried to peer through the doors without Tony noticing, because she didn’t want to have to explain why she didn’t want to go inside. But again, she couldn’t see anything.
“I dunno,” she muttered.
“It’s spaghetti. You like spaghetti, right?”
Actually, she liked tacos. Spaghetti reminded her of her grandmother, and she hated to be reminded of her grandmother.
Her stomach, the fucking traitor, chose that moment to growl, making Tony jerk his head toward the entrance. “Go on. You need to eat something.”
And it was true, she did. The smell of food was thick and rich, and even though there were bad memories associated with the smell, her body didn’t care. It needed fuel. So she shrugged as if it didn’t matter to her one way or the other, and stepped through the doors.
It was hot inside, the smell of food combining with the sour smell of unwashed bodies. Mia, used to it, barely noticed. She was too busy staring at the volunteers manning the counters where they dished out the food.
He wasn’t there. Thank God for that.
She settled herself, grabbing a tray and getting in line, standing there silently listening to the buzz of conversation from the people around her. She didn’t like talking to people, since they always asked too many questions, but she liked listening to other people talk. It made her feel connected in a way she rarely did.
The line was long but it moved fast, and soon she was moving with her tray over to one of the tables, finding a place to sit that wasn’t too near anyone else, and eating quickly.
There came a small eruption of noise by the door, more people talking then laughing. Mia, too busy eating, didn’t turn around. And then she heard it, the sound of a voice, deep and dark, smooth and warm. An expensive voice.
She hunched her shoulders and went very still, a primitive response to danger, sure, but it had kept her alive in the past. Not that she thought he was going to kill her or anything, she just didn’t want him to see her. Or, in fact, notice her in any way.
The sound of his voice rolled beneath everyone else’s, cutting through them effortlessly as if he never expected not to be heard or anyone not to listen when he spoke. But it didn’t sound like it was coming closer, which was good.
She scraped the last of the spaghetti sauce off the bottom of her metal tray. If she was quick, she’d be able to get out of here before he had a chance to notice she was here.
Then every nerve ending in her body sprang to attention, the hairs on the back of her neck lifting. Because someone was standing behind her. Someone very tall. And she could smell something spicy and luxurious, a scent she had no comparisons for and couldn’t describe. A scent that made her hungry—and not for food, which was just downright confusing.
She froze, dread shifting inside her.
A hand came down on the table next to her, tanned, long-fingered, and very masculine. A hand with white scars scattered all over it. And there was something between those long fingers, something made out of midnight blue wool.
“Here,” that deep, dark voice said. “You might find a use for this.”
Then he left. She could hear him moving away, talking to someone else now, his voice fading, that delicious scent fading with him.
She blinked, staring down at the thing he’d left on the table.
It was knitted and soft-looking, and she had a horrible feeling that it might be a hat.
Anger rose inside her, thick and hot, because she hated it when people gave her things without asking. Without thinking about whether it was something someone else might want and which then could potentially be stolen off her. She preferred not to have things at all because the less she had, the less other people viewed her as a target.
She should leave it on the table, or better yet, throw it on the floor and wipe her filthy sneakers all over it, tear it up and destroy it. That way no one could have it.
The old man a couple of seats away reached out to snatch it, and before she could stop herself, Mia found her fingers closing around the blue wool and jamming it in her pocket instead.
It was so unbelievably soft she couldn’t make herself let it go.
Damn, she was an idiot. If there was one thing living on the streets had taught her, it was that getting attached to anything at all was a bad move, because sooner or later you either lost it or someone else took it from you.
Better to let the old man have it.
But she didn’t take it out of her pocket and five minutes later, as she stepped out into the freezing night, she was still holding it.
Copyright © 2017 by Jackie Ashenden.
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Jackie Ashenden lives in Auckland, New Zealand with her husband, the inimitable Dr. Jax, and their two kids and two cats. When she’s not torturing alpha males and their stroppy heroines, she can be found drinking chocolate martinis, reading anything she can lay her hands on, posting random crap on her blog, or being forced to go mountain biking with her husband.