Lisa Renée Jones
Pocket Star / February 24, 2014 / $.99 digital
All I wanted to do is take her back to bed, and bury myself and the demons of my past inside her. But I can’t. Not now. Maybe not ever.
Lisa Renée Jones's His Secrets by is a novella from the Inside Out series that shows a different point of view—literally. In this scrumptious quickie, Chris Merit’s most inner thoughts are uncovered and readers are given a deeper insight into Chris’s fears, self-doubt and his adoration to Sara. In the previous novel, Revealing Us, Chris’s secret was revealed, but in His Secrets the significance behind his agony is revealed. Even though he feared Sara’s reaction towards his past, he laid all his cards on the table. No more lies or untold truths. He let her see with her own eyes what he was capable of, and hoped she would accept it all.
Sara’s hand comes down on my arms and I pull her in front of me to face the window. “Look at her, Sara. Look at her. This is what I brought you to Paris to see.” Then I turn her to face me, one of my hands on the glass by her head, the other on her waist. “My secret wasn’t about the shooting. That’s what I let you believe, but no more.”
He was ashamed and revolted by the turmoil he had created in his past, including introducing his ex-girlfriend Amber, to the whip and the lifestyle of pain to cope with pain. He was certain when Sara witnessed the real terror of his secrets, she would have run for the hills. He hates himself for the things he could not change, but Sara demonstrated her acceptance of his past and a willingness to fight his demons for him.
Her gaze lifted sharply to mine. “You aren’t this whip. We are not this whip.”
My hand closed over hers on the whip. “I know.”
“No. You don’t."
“Smart girl, “Isabel purrs. “Smarter than you, mon cher.”
Sara jerks back and steps around me, lifting the whip, her wrist cocked to use it. Grabbing her wrist, I insert myself back between her and Isabel, and in this instant I fear for Sara and for us, more than I ever have. “It’s not worth it. She’s not worth it.”
Her lips and hands quiver. “She needs to feel what she makes other people feel.
One of the many complexes layers of Chris is his need to control. He needs to have control of his surroundings. Control is his survival. With Sara, he only requires control in the bedroom, but he needs her trust always, which she hands over freely. And with trust he introduces her to pain for pleasure and exposes her to erotic sensations beyond anything she has ever experienced.
She does as I say without hesitation, and the fact that she trusts me that much in the midst of the unknown gives me a high I believe she shares with me. I need control. She needs a safe place to give it away. It works for us, and I will always be safe for her in a way the whip never was for me—a way I never wanted it to be. I will never hurt her as I wanted it to hurt me.
Chris is exceptionally passionate, good-natured, gifted, and yet deeply tormented. But with Sara, he is finding his way out of the dark places of his mind. His guilt is lessened. His self-blame fades. And he is prepared to have a future with her. His Secrets left much to be answered in the mystery of their journey together and I’m looking forward to see where else they go from here.
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